| updates:
some asshole from Ray's seafood backed into my car
the salt burlington uses is eating my car
i'm going to connecticut on saturday for my 2 bestie's 30th birthdays
we are going to the huki la (sp.??) lounge & the cheescake factory
i've never been to either but they sound intriguing & delicious
work has been going pretty well but i still cannot wait for my vacation
i'm so excited for a new bodycare line i will be bringing in named Biggs & Featherbelle
the coop launched it's new website & it looks quite good-check it out
the dog has gained a little bit of weight & i'm to blame
everyone in burlington has a cold or flu-please don't let me get sick!
my lungs hurt from schmoking
why is life so expensive?
i'm freaked out because i have been putting off my mri but now i have to do it
can i really sit still long enough for them to do the mri?
i need to learn to love to clean-my house has not been feeling the love
i am really digging the office & 30 rock-neither of which i was watching a year ago
i have had Forgetting Sarah Marshall for 3 weeks & haven't watched it despite glowing
reviews from Howard Stern
the closer i get to 30, the more unhealthy i feel. i think i need to cleanse.
I miss all of my LJ Friends!
Sara-thanks for the orange peel & the lovely card (i love people who have beautiful stationary/cards). see you at the coop! | comments: Leave a comment   |
| Looking forward to a 12 hr 90210 marathon entitled "kelly's leftovers"-all the men kelly taylor has loved & left. i will be indulging in thanksgiving sandwiches utilizing what i learned on the friends thanksgiving marathon-something ross calls the "moist-maker". It is an extra gravy-soaked slice of bread in the middle of the sandwich. it's the little things that make my day!
i have thru monday & am planning to enjoy every minute of it.
no black friday shopping for me, i did buy one thing yesterday online. we got a ps3 game called Brothers in Arms: Hell's Highway. It is usually $60 but we got it for $19.99. sweet! i can't a sale on the game that i really want-Little Big Planet. I want to create a sack-person, but I can't afford it right now.
Hope the Chicagoans had a great Kegs-giving.
Hope everyone else had a fabulous day yesterday. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| After about 10 years of my parents bitching about me needing a general practitioner-I finally got one! she is in Winooski & she seems really great. i definitely recognize her as a coop-er.
unfortunately, the thing i have been dreading seems more real now. my pops has MS & the symptoms usually come out in the late 20's-guess who is 29? that's right, me! and my leg has been numb for months now. she said that i have to go to the nuerologist to get a MRI to see what is up since that is one of the symptoms of MS. dammit! i think i may put off the appt for a little while until i feel like i can handle whatever they throw at me. just being put in the MRI tube freaks me out. i'm going to start going to a therapist that Meredith recommended to me. Maybe i can discuss my concerns before making the appt.
either way, it will be good to know, not that you can totally isolate that anyone has MS. they kinda do a checklist, that if you have a certain amt of symptoms, then you have it. Autoimmune diseases are weird like that & are probably a million different diseases categorized as one thing.
Updates to come... | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| 1st berry picking of the year-people must have caught on because it is so much busier than the past years. and when a lot of people have picked thru your patch, you are fucked. the farmer wouldn't even give us a flat b/c there just wasn't enough berries. motherfuckers! we had strawberry shortcake last night-Zak is great with the homemade biscuits and whipped cream. note to self- we are lactose intolerant and cream is the worst!
i am so psyched about all the farmers markets around town. i'm almost glad i didn't sign up for a csa this year. it was nice getting lots of random veggies but some stuff just didn't get used. now i can pick and choose what i get but i have to watch my budget. zak and i have decided to try a new artisan cheese with a fresh baked loaf of bread each week. i feel so european when i go out 3 times a week (saturday, tuesday, and thursday) to pick up my food for a couple days. everything is so fresh and so local, i don't mean to sound like a douche but i really do feel more connected to the food i eat. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| Just got back from CT. It was one of the best trips to the old home place ever. I didn't get to see my niece though-horrible custody battles do not benefit anyone.
When I got home I spent some time with my dad and grammy, then off to my mom's house since I come from a broken home now. My friends threw me an impromptu birthday bbq at grayville, the park we used to go puff at after school (and sometimes before). It was on tuesday the 10th so it was still pretty hot & humid.
Wednesday, we were off to Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers at the Meadows Music Theatre in Hartford. Hartford is still a big piece of shit but we had the best time ever. Everything just came together perfectly-everyone showed up on time, no one got separated, good food good people good booze fantastic music! He played pretty much everything I needed to hear except wildflowers and into the great wide open. Here's some of the highlights:
Learning to Fly-best version ever!
Mary Jane's Last Dance
Refugee
American Girl
Free Fallin'
I won't back Down
Don't Come Around Here no More
you Wreck Me
Running Down a Dream
Everything was so damn good- I danced, I sang, I probably made a fool of myself and I don't even care!
The rest of the week was spent going out to dinner, shopping at Target (when will VT get with the times?), watching movies, playing guitar hero, chilling with all my old friends, playing with babies & toddlers...
All in All, it was great. Should I be living in VT or should I just move home? am i really happy here or do i just not want to admit defeat and go back to CT? | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | On our way to CT. tom petty show tomorrow night. hopefully my mom will behave herself. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | I'm really trying to keep up with my education, especially having to do with work. In the past, I have been so stressed with work that I don't want to do anything at home that reminds me of the coop. Now that I am starting to chill out a bit and adapt to change better, I have begun the process of home study. I am doing a lot of different online herbal courses and I am attending the women's herbal conference. I am also trying to read a ton of different books on nutrition, suppys, and of course herbals. It feels so good to use my brain again. I am constantly learning at work but it's good to challenge myself at home as well. My coworker, Cristi, has been running the herbal education program at the store and she books really interesting people to discuss a plethora of topics. I just went to the Flower Essence workshop and have made a few of my own, when you make your own product it seems to work better. It's so rewarding and it saves a butt-ton of $$$. How can you lose? | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Has anyone read that book? I am having issues with change. As I get older, I am less flexible, basically more set in my ways. If I can't learn to go with the flow, then the flow will leave me behind. I should embrace change since what I've been doing has not been working. I am trying to come up with some tools that will help me along the way. My dad suggested index cards and post it notes. The index cards will be for my goals and I will read over my goals before starting my day so they are fresh in my mind. The post-it notes will be reminders throughout the day. Even one that just says "think positive" or "Remember to Breathe" posted by the computer at work will provide the reminders I need while I am at work. I thought things would get easier as I got older but here I am about to turn 29 and everything feels more confused than ever. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| It's tamale day at Steff and Zak's house. It's not just how good they taste, the process of making them is quite fun as well. I am simmering chicken in herbs and spices in the crockpot and once its "pullable", it's time to shove that shit in some masa and cram into a soaked corn husk.
Work has been interesting. I'm learning to play the game. I'm not where i thought I'd be a year ago but I am coming to terms with it finally. We've been getting a lot of fun new shit in the department (which we are renaming Wellness) including nail polish, higher end facial care lines (looking into Mychelle, Oshuna, and Alaffia right now), tons of new makeup from Honeybee Gardens, Larenim mineral makeup (love love love it), BWC, and KMF.
Cristi and I are going to the Women's Herbal Conference and it sounds badass. Lynn Ellen decided that the coop can afford to get us a cabin instead of us camping in case of rain. We are doing plant id by land and water (in a sweet canoe) and there is lots of yummy vegetarian food, yoga, classes, crafts, drum circles, all that hippie shit. Can't wait until August!!
It's going to be a great summer. As long as i stay positive and don't let the man get me down. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Ladies,
I can't seem to get on your website anymore. The connection keeps timing out. I check that shit like once a day and I miss it. it's my last link to my gals.
I so can't wait to see y'all in september, and we'll be able to spend a couple days together-camping, drinking, talking, playing-i want it to happen now now now.
love,
stiff | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| It's really a long weekend but i am still happy to take part. been really really stressed at work but what's new with that. i'm just letting it get to me more than ever. so bad that i now regularly partake in the self-help book. i found an awesome book in the self-help section- don't remember the exact name but its pretty much all quotes from the wicked old school nancy drew books. its like life lessons with nancy. i read those books religiously. the old hardcover ones and even the updated hip books from the 90's (the response to sweet valley high). i love it.
i'm trying to branch out in the hobby world. nothing is exciting me too much. i love arty crap but its not really my strong point. if i'm not good at something immediately, i tend to give up which limits my possibilities. i need to change my whole way of thinking. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | I am too easily annoyed. I want to kill everyone. I want everyone to be so accepting of me and one little thing said to me in the wrong tone makes me want to freak out. I still am refusing to see a counselor even though it is not something i have tried yet. I need some goddamn inner peace. just that statement says it all. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| its been pretty nuts lately. i had the 24-hr flu and stayed home thursday. then i didn't take it easy and worked 10 hour days thru the weekend. by saturday night i had a full blown cold- sore throat, stuffy nose, cough, all the fun. none of my hippie healing has worked. except the oscillo for the flu, it helped work that shit thru my system fast. sales were fucking amazing in haba this weekend. bigger than ever.
its christmas and i'm getting excited. i can't sleep much more due to the cold than to the excitement. i just love getting up and walking the par-man and then chilling and cooking all day. last night we rolled beeswax candles with the wicks and sheets i purchased the other day. its pretty much the most fun.
my boys, nucci and leger, are coming up on wednesday thru friday. then an hour after they leave my sister will be here. i can't wait. nucci just moved to colorado so i haven't seen him in forever. he's pretty much the nicest friend i have from ct- i love everyone there but he is just so sweet and well-meaning especially compared to ellis.
i will hopefully talk to some of you today.
Merry Baby Jebus Day! | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| i can't believe christmas is so close. i can't wait for a nice tuesday off of work. i plan to wake up, make a nice cup of pumpkin spice coffee, bundle up and take the Parker man for a walk. Then we will open our presents while listening to satellite radio. Then we will make a small breakfast and the zak has to go to his family's house. I will get to have steff time for about 6 hours (which seems a little lonely now but will probably be awesome) so i hope i get some books. We plan to make beef tenderloin with individual yorkshire puddings. yummy. then on to some board games0 i better get electronic banking monopoly or heads will roll.
it's gonna turn out this good- i'm telling you. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| i've decided that i just have to chill out and go with the flow. i'm working myself up about shit i can't control. i worry to much about what others think and that is not working for me at all. especially now that i cannot please everyone since i'm halfway in charge. i get so sick of everyone's complaints but i am the biggest complainer of all. the drama makes me crazy but maybe i create some of it.
i have been actively trying to control my stress. Can anyone who reads this give me some of their stress release techniques? please, please, please. i have been drinking a lot of nervine tea, adaptogen tea, tinctures, supplements, anything really. my head is bringing me down people. why can't i just shut it off? like this morning- i'm all worried about all the orders i have to place. even if i did work all day today, i still couldn't place orders since its sunday. why must i worry about things that i can do nothing about? how do i stop doing this? i want to enjoy my life not waste it thinking about work and stress (which go hand in hand). i love my work and am very dedicated to it but i get frustrated easily and that affects me a lot.
Thanks for listening- i know i say the same stuff all the time. This is quite a struggle for me. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| hi everyone!!
i'm missing all of you guys terribly right now. i miss nooney's company, erin & meg's kitchen table shenanigans, frankie boom's hilarity, ari's adorable redheadedness, etc...
where are you all when i need you?
everything is going pretty well. i don't want to just post twice a year when i'm feeling shitty.
Coop high is basically the same other than the high turnover rate. i am interviewing a bunch of chicks next week for a haba stocker job. one woman actually said in her application that she wants to train us! what a crazy beeeatch. she's also like 60 years old and i'm not sure how she will feel about having a 28 year old manager. i wouldn't like it. sales are amazing and we have so many cool-ass products for the holidays. all the stuff that i took a chance on is selling really well. the amount of people who feel they need melinda to survive is dwindling.
don't tell but i got zak a kitchenaid mixer for christmas. he is going to love love love it. i'm so excited to give it to him. we also give each other gifts for the house- we got new pots and pans and a coffee maker that grinds the beans and everything automatically.
my sister is coming up at the end of december. i haven't seen her for 3 whole years. its going to be quite fun i think/hope. shes OCD so i hope i can clean the house to her satisfaction. she gets agitated and uncomfortable in messy places. i'm in trouble! i am the messiest bitch ever.
my stress levels are pretty high right now, but is that really any different than usual? my dad says i need to go to therapy but i am so resistant to it. i know i really need to but what can a stranger say to help that my friends can't (for free).
Nooney- you will be the hottest flight attendant ever. everyone will want to join the mile-high club if you're in charge. its so cool that you may be changing your life completely. i could never get out of my comfort zone like that. you are my new hero sister! | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| I've been a busy lady but I wanted to update since i so rarely talk to any of you! Good ole Sharon from the Front End is the new buyer in HABA- she rocks-Love her. I am learning how to delegate which is not easy for me. My style is reminiscent of the Little General- i just do everything so no one else will fuck it up and i can do it faster anyway. Gotta learn to trust ASAP. LE is to say the least a learning experience for me.
Sales are way up in HABA- i like to take credit but sales are great all over the store. Bringing in a lot of badass holiday gifty type crap. Things like a chinese food container filled with yarn, directions, and knitting needles. Kitschy type shit. Also, candles that when you burn them, you can use the wax as body cream or massage oil.
My boys are coming up this weekend and we are going to a Del the Funky Homosapien show at Higher Ground on Sunday night. I can't wait to see them.
Jodi quit the coop- her last day is in very early November. boo. i love her and she reminds me of the good ole days. one of my fav managers. Many of you out there were her people so you'll probably be sad to hear such things. Don't worry she quit cuz she got another job. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| We just hired sharon for buyer in HABA- i think she'll be a quick learner and i have always enjoyed working with her in the past. Now Melinda is emailing me asking for company reps contact info. i feel that this may be crossing a boundary. i normally wouldn't mind but i do feel like the coop would frown at this so it feels wrong. what do y'all think?
I have been thoroughly enjoying simple measure- the write ups that accompany the recipes are almost more delicious than the food itself. I've been trying to come up with things to do to keep my mind away from work (as usual) and cooking has always been a favorite. Especially now that it is a high of 65 today- i can finally roast my beets and carrots. Its been so hot i haven;t wanted to keep the oven on that high for that long.
my new cell phone is a mp3 player as well. i just bought a 2 gb memory card for it and am in the process of syncing all my computer music with the phone. so awesome. unfortunately, no regular headphones will plug into the krzr (of course) so everyone has to be exposed to my music until i save up the 30 bucks to buy the h-phones. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| my concerns:
I will become LE's grocery bitch
I will not get credit for all the great things i'm doing for HABA
I will not get to choose my own schedule
I will not ever be plain old manager just the ass man
I will not have a strong enough voice
I will be stretched to thin
I will not be respected as a manager
I will be overworked, overextended with no positive benefits
I could go on forever. Should I just think positive? Should i confront LE? Should I talk to ops or hr?
I've been trying to set boundaries but i don't know how much she responds to this- i'm very direct with her but still...
This is not how i imagined it even 6 months ago. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
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